Thursday, April 4, 2013

YOU HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE

I have been spending much time over the past month deliberating how to fulfill my purpose. I am a spiritual teacher. I am an empathic healer, I work with the Divine Feminine Energy to assist others in bringing balance into their lives. I have been doing this for many years, over 30 years to give you a close number. I have known for a very long time that I need to put my thoughts down for others to read, for in so doing, my words would open a person to investigate making new choices which in turn will lead them into a happier life. A life filled with passion and joy. My problem has been my own doubts. What can I possibly say that would help someone else. Oh, I know that I have been doing this for years, working with clients one on one is different than just spewing forth in a more general manner. As I work on a person one on one spirit reveals to me what the person needs to hear, where I need to work on their body, who might be present to assist them on their path of healing. When it comes to just sitting down and writing all of a sudden I get a block and feel insecure while at the same time, it really is no different, the words still flow, spirit fills me and here I am writing. The quote at the top is for my benefit in writing this. I must move forward, I have stayed stagnant for much too long arguing with myself, because I know for a surety the Gods do not argue with you. One choice carries the power to move mountains. To change the course of your life to fulfill the measure of your creation. This is power unlike anything of a temporal nature. I know this to be so true from my personal experiences. Each time I have finally given up my resistance to what spirit has been telling me for sometimes years, I discover that my life would actually have been easier had I surrendered much sooner. So here I am, saying 'yes', and it feels good and the words are flowing. What a concept ~ I was reading Carolyn Myss this morning, in her new book Archetypes she was talking about Abraham Lincoln having the archetype of a 'leader'. He knew in his youth, she wrote, that he was born for some great purpose. I believe we all have such feelings inside of what it is that we would do if we had the courage to step out and fulfill it. Often life will take a twist or a turn, a serendipitous coincidence. Because the Universe is governed by Law, we cannot outrun our those thoughts, feelings, dreams that come to us at moments of quietude. I have not been trying to outrun my purpose, yet, I have been avoiding it. I have allowed other things to get in the way of writing, yet my feeling small and inadequate will not change my purpose. I have found that it is becoming stronger as I mull it over in my mind and ask the question, "How do I do this?". I am told it is much simpler than it looks. I am to put one foot in front of the other each day and risk what I think and do that which I know is important. That Dear Ones, is exactly what is intended for you to do also. What ever it is that is calling to you, is what you must answer to. You already know within your heart of hearts what that is. Be willing to take a look at it and to make the choice to enter into the arena. Nothing is ever accomplished by those who sit on the sidelines, as I have been know to do over the years. The one choice I made over three years ago has propelled me into taking more risks than I have ever imagine. I volunteer to do things I used to avoid. I have found fulfillment in my music, which I find interesting. As I sit and play the piano even for my own enjoyment, there is much more emotion within the notes than every before. I am learning to stand in the Truth of Me, not asking for validation, nor needing validation from anyone. I have an inner peace which fills me with joy as I follow the beat of my own heart and live my life according to my purpose without regard to what someone else might think. That is freeing, I know understand the statement that the truth will set you free! It certainly does. Let us each choose to more into our passions and our purposes for this will help to bring balance to the world for we will cease blaming others and taking responsibility for ourselves. As I have been listening to spirit the last few days I have been impressed to be totally visible in the world. To be totally visible, one must be willing to share all facets of oneself. We are all full of the opposition and we carry the possibility of bringing forth either good or evil. My personal choice is to bring forth 'good', light and healing. It is to also bear witness of my faith in Jesus Christ as the Master Healer. He is the original Meta-physician and he said to us, "physician, heal thyself".

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Simple Acts of Kindness -- Powerful Acts of Grace


19 February 2013 I have been pondering a simple act of kindness in my life, it is enfolded with love and grace which I have no words. I stand in awe of the love that we are capable of sharing one between another as we grace one another's lives with kind acts or expressions. We have no clue how what we say or do affects another person. We have the power to save a life, or to take a life with a simple word or look. The intangible energy that flows between us is real, it relays messages from one to another without words or any other form of known communication. I have been sick for the last few days. My control freak personality has been keeping me up at night as I am learning to trust God knowing that I have no control over a particular facet of my life. Insomnia sets in, the body gets tired and then I get sick. It is only a bad cold, but it has knocked me off my feet. Yesterday, I was resting, actually I was sleeping/napping. I heard a timid knock on my front door, at first I wasn't sure, then it came again. I got up and cautiously went to my door, we generally do not have visitors without prior notice, so I was hesitant as to who would be there on this day. I opened the door and there stood a dear friend with a box containing dinner for my husband and me. I felt such love that someone would care enough about me to be concerned for my health and well-being. I was over-whelmed with emotions. I expressed that no one had brought me dinner out of the blue like that and that I was extremely appreciative. I spent the evening contemplating our acts of kindness and remembering Carolyn Myss's book, Invisible Acts of Power, Personal Choices That Create Miracles. I had to search for the book to look for Carolyn's thoughts about these simple acts. I am so filled with enormous appreciation knowing that my simple acts of kindness, unbeknownst to myself have created healing in others and what goes out, always comes back. One never knows the consequences of a kind word, a touch, a helpful act has upon the recipient. Often we do things for others because it is almost automatic, which is good, yet; the impact felt by the recipient is long lasting, it goes on and on in their memory long after we have forgotten. I am also reminded of many times in my life receiving acts of kindness from others that have been so exquisitely timed that I know God works miracles by using ordinary mortals as his servants. When our children were young, there was a period of several years when on Christmas Eve, there would be a knock on our door, as we opened it, no one was there, upon looking for the person who knocked, we would look down and see an exquisite Gingerbread House, delightfully decorated and left for us to enjoy. I remember feeling disappointed when the year came that we did not receive that Gingerbread House. I knew that it was time for these loving people to share this precious gift with another family and this filled my heart with precious memories of the many years we had received such a gift of grace. Over twenty years ago, our house burned, it was extremely traumatic for us. Neither Ray nor I were working regular 'jobs'. Money was tight. We had left the house, Ray had dropped me, at my sister's to prepare for a yard sale scheduled for the next day. I received a phone call from my oldest daughter telling me that the roof of my house was on fire and I needed to go home. My sister immediately drove me home. As we approached, there were fire trucks, firemen, and many neighbors and friends in the street watching with horror at our burning house. As I got out of the car, I had a thought, "This is a great blessing." Our house fire, was indeed a great blessing. It was a symbol of God's Love for us. It was an opportunity given to us to start over in many areas of our lives, to heal and to be shown that there are no accidents and that our lives are always Divinely orchestrated for our greatest good. There are many miracles surrounding our house fire, money was generously given, help was greatly appreciated in the removal of the old house and the placing of a brand new pre-fab house on the property. Great blessings were at work in our lives, gifts of grace and witness of God's everlasting love for us. These memories still flood me with awe, the times money just showed up, at the right time and in the exact amount that was needed. Each of us have experiences like mine, my experiences are unique to me. Yours are unique to you. Your experiences of Grace are personal and come in the exact right time for you and in the exact way that you need them and they are carried to you through mortal men, inspired by an Eternal God that is full of love and grace for you. You are of great worth, you are never alone, left to your own devices. Every thought is a prayer and is heard and answered at the right time, in the right place and in the right way. Dear Ones, look back on your life and see the moments of Grace that have been gently placed along your path. Give thanks for these gifts. Look for ways to share the gift of grace with others through your own simple acts of kindness. This is a principle of health and well-being, not only for the receiver, also for the giver.

Saturday, February 9, 2013


‎ IS YOUR SOUL CALLING YOU? Do you have yearnings in your heart that are nudging you to make changes in your life. A different job, move to a new location, a change your vocation? These kinds of feelings are connected to your Soul's purpose. You are being called to step into your life purpose. Your life purpose is connected with agreements which you made before you descended to the earth for this lifetime. Your agreements could be with people, to live in a certain area, to work in a vocation that is tied with these agreements. Your agreements propel and guide your life in a direction that will enable you to fulfill your purpose. Living in alignment with your purpose is where one not only connects with their joy, one is also able to live abundantly, synchroniscities become a daily part of life. The Universe we live in is governed by Eternal Laws which are important for us to learn to obey. As we align with our Soul's purpose we also align with the Laws and our lives begin to work in a way that up to now may have been frustrating us. We now see the freedom that comes when one follows their intuitive guidance and flow with their agreements. The Goddess Inanna calls these desires 'The God Codes'. These codes are encoded in our cell tissue, every cell of our body knows what they are. The codes are intelligent and are connected with our guidance system, our intuition and our feelings, and therefore our heart and our other organs and especially the indocrine system, the immune system and the pituitary and pineal glands. You health is also indicative of whether you are following you guidance system to it's fullest. Many times a person will become ill because they are not living a life that is congruent with the God Codes. I have experienced this for many years; living with dysfunctions of the body, ilnesses and depression. As I have learned to align with my own personal 'Soul Purpose' I have found that the closer I come to living congruently, the healthier my body is. I have discovered this mostly on my own through trial and error and yet I know of many teachers that teach this principle as a Law of Health. I believe that this is how Jesus Christ was able to heal his followers. As he taught them, they aligned with the Truths he taught, they received witness of that Truth and came to him for healing, because they believed and had aligned in their hearts the healing was possible. I have also experienced this as a healer working with clients, as they are able to change the way they look at things, change their belief systems, their bodies follow suit and they are no longer plagued by the ailments that they had when they started seeeing me. My clients learn empowerment through their choices and consequences. Choice and consequence are the way that the world flows. It is based on natural and eternal law, what is truth for one is truth for everyone who walks upon the earth. These laws are not only for one culture, one country or continent. These laws are Law equally for every living person upon the face of the earth, those that have lived, live now and will yet live. As we learn to live our lives connected to the Laws are lives work and flow as they were intended. I ask for God's love to be with you and witness that which is of Truth and witness to you through your guidance system your Truths that you may connect with your Soul's call and answer accordingly. Blessings ~

Wednesday, February 6, 2013


THE POWER TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE
I have been spending much time over the past month deliberating how to fulfill my purpose. I am a spiritual teacher. I am an empathic healer, I work with the Divine Feminine Energy to asisst others in bringing balance into their lives. I have been doing this for many years, over 30 years to give you a close number. I have known for a very long time that I need to put my thoughts down for others to read, for in so doing, my words would open a person to investigate making new choices which in turn will lead them into a happier life. A life filled with passion and joy. My problem has been my own doubts. What can I possibly say that would help someone else. Oh, I know that I have been doing this for years, working with clients one on one is different than just spewing forth in a more general manner. As I work on a person one on one spirit reveals to me what the person needs to hear, where I need to work on their body, who might be present to assist them on their path of healing. When it comes to just sitting down and writing all of a sudden I get a block and feel insecure while at the same time, it really is no different, the words still flow, spirit fills me and here I am writing. The quote at the top is for my benefit in writing this. I must move forward, I have stayed stagnant for much too long arguing with myself, because I know for a surety the Gods do not argue with you. One choice carries the power to move mountains. To change the course of your life to fulfill the measure of your creation. This is power unlike anything of a temporal nature. I know this to be so true from my personal experiences. Each time I have finally given up my resisitance to what spirit has been telling me for sometimes years, I discover that my life would actually have been easier had I surrendered much sooner. So here I am, saying 'yes', and it feels good and the words are flowing. What a concept ~ I was reading Carolyn Myss this morning, in her new book Archetypes she was talking about Abraham Lincoln having the archetype of a 'leader'. He knew in his youth, she wrote, that he was born for some great purpose. I believe we all have such feelings inside of what it is that we would do if we had the courage to step out and fulfill it. Often life will take a twist or a turn, a serendipitous coincidence. Because the Universe is governed by Law, we cannot outrun our those thoughts, feelings, dreams that come to us at moments of quietude. I have not been trying to outrun my purpose, yet, I have been avoiding it. I have allowed other things to get in the way of writing, yet my feeling small and inadequated will not change my purpose. I have found that it is becoming stronger as I mull it over in my mind and ask the question, "How do I do this?". I am told it is much simpler than it looks. I am to put one foot in front of the other each day and risk what I think and do that which I know is important. That Dear Ones, is exactly what is intended for you to do also. What ever it is that is calling to you, is what you must answer to. You already know within your heart of hearts what that is. Be willing to take a look at it and to make the choice to enter into the arena. Nothing is ever accomplished by those who sit on the sidelines, as I have been know to do over the years. The one choice I made over three years ago has propelled me into taking more risks than I have ever imagine. I volunteer to do things I used to avoid. I have found fulfillment in my music, which I find interesting. As I sit and play the piano even for my own enjoyment, there is much more emotion within the notes than every before. I am learning to stand in the Truth of Me, not asking for validation, nor needing validation from anyone. I have an inner peace which fills me with joy as I follow the beat of my own heart and live my life according to my purpose without regard to what someone else might think. That is freeing, I know understand the statement that the truth will set you free! It certainly does. Let us each choose to live more from our passions and our purposes for this will help to bring balance to the world for we will cease blaming others and begin taking responsibility for ourselves.

Friday, January 4, 2013

The Enchanted One ~ Sheila Applegate


Dear Ones –   The Goddess Inanna and I, MariahInanna, desire to speak to you today of a fabulous book on healing.  We will be offering insights and love from Sheila Applegate, Isis and Magdalene.   Sheila Applegates' book, Enchanted One: The Portal To Love (LINK: http://www.sheilaapplegate.com/?page_id=374) is filled with powerful expressions of love and understanding from the Divine Feminine, especially Isis and Magdalene.   Sheila weaves Truth and Power through her book as she shares her story and gives advice from the Goddess' that will empower your life, uplift and enrich and encourage you to reach for more to heal the pain and the anger, the residual fallout from having lived lives full of fear, anger, jealousies and all manner of inappropriate behavior.     MariahInanna:   I began my journey into healing in the mid 1980's; I have served as a healer for almost as long.  I have experienced many miracles of healing over the years.   I was entranced by Sheila's book.  It held my attention as I read much of what I have taught over the past 35 years.  I found myself being drawn into the healing energy of the Goddess, the tears would flow, long held emotions were in the process of being released.   I believe Sheila's book has power encoded within the language, not only Sheila's words, but also Isis and Magdalene's words.  The Goddess Inanna has taught me for years that her words, when spoken through me or written and read silently will enter a person's heart and begin to bring peace and comfort into the person that is listening or reading the words.  I know this to also be true for Sheila, Isis and Magdalene.  Their words are healing and go into your cell tissue and are remembered and set in motion healing on physical, mental, emotional and spiritual levels.   The Goddess Inanna:   Reading Sheila's book will activate the 'God Codes' that I have taught MariahInanna about.  The God Codes are placed in your Soul before you descend to earth and are then sent into every cell beginning immediately at conception, especially your heart and your bones.  These codes are part of your guidance system and are designed when activated to help you steer your course toward your passion and the fulfilling of the measure of your creation.   Dear Ones, you are each here to bring love to the earth, to serve one another that you might live in your Joy.   Allow Sheila's book to assist you in this for what you are seeking is seeking you for you would not be reading this now if it were not so.   Blessings ~ The Goddess Inanna Sheila: Thank You MariahInanna and Goddess Inanna for the beautiful words you offer. Your words reflect the vision that I have held for Enchanted One.   It was my intention that this book would be layered so that the words and vibrations contained within Enchanted One: The Portal To Love (LINK: http://www.sheilaapplegate.com/?page_id=359) would meet the readers where they are, both those  who are beginning their journey of exploring emotions and liing in unconditional love and those who have journeyed deep within and are on the verge of fully integrating  Divine Love into every aspect of their lives, and guide them gently to the next level.   The tears that flowed as you read this book were tears of Divine Grace and they reflect the subtle but profound vibration of healing that you felt as you read the words.   I, too, say that when I bring forth the message of the Divine Feminine, the words though beautiful in their own right, are secondary to the vibration of love that is contained within them.  The words are in essence encoded with Divine Grace.    When I open to a channeled message the words flow with gentleness and strength.  The vibration is contained within the sound of my voice.  In the written word the vibration is capture within the words the moment that they are written.  As I wrote Enchanted One my human side became frustrated at times because there were moments that I wanted to write and simply could not.  During the process Isis explained to me that the power contained within the written word must be precise in its timing.  I surrendered into their knowing and in doing I am now able to share with the world a book that is embedded with the key to the open heart or as Goddess Inanna said, a book that will activate the "God Code" within, helping the readers to open to the flow of love and remember the Oneness within them.   Thank you for sharing your experience reading Enchanted One: The Portal To Love with your readers. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sheila Applegate   As a clinical therapist, motivational presenter, author & teacher, Sheila's passion is to provide a forum for people to process emotion & integrate spiritual understanding into their daily lives. Her new book, Enchanted One: The Portal to Love, provides readers with a guide to embracing love in every moment. www.sheilaapplegate.com In celebration of the release of Enchanted One, Sheila is offering this raffle contest for multiple chances to win one of two Amazon Gift Cards. TAKE NOTE (if I may be so bold)! PLEASE… Share your thoughts and comments below and to show my appreciation and support I am making this special offer (in addition to the raffle contest offer above!). (Click all links for details). THIS BELOW is the HTML version if that is helpful

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Thursday, January 3, 2013

Is Healing really possible?


26 December 2012 I often find the task to write my story so overwhelming that I retreat into my small. Returning again and again for it seems so unavoidable. We each have sacred contracts to embrace and to fulfilled. We make covenants before our birth to experience life in many forms. With each experience we are given an opportunity to sort out all of our feelings and memories and seek for the truth held within all experiences and to reconcile all that we hold dear and to release to the atonement all that is not Joy. It is not that I believe my story is not important it is a feeling that I can't do it justice and that I could or would possibly fail to uplift others with my story, which is my desire to let others know that healing from all manner of abuse is possible for each one of us; I face my fears that others will “feel that she may be able to break her abusive patterns; but, I can't, and therefore they will remain in their pain, misery and emotional dramas. It is my intent that those who read this may know of a surety that they can change their lives and move into the peace that they desire. That they may begin to know the will of God for them, which is to live in Joy. Dear ones, you were created by God in his Joy that you too might know Joy, here, now, in this lifetime. These are powerful words, because they are true. That is why you so desire to heal. I am keenly aware that healing is a very personal and unique to each individual. It must be conducted on a timetable suitable for a person's situation and emotional stability. For some of us, our emotions run so deep, we must learn compassion for ourselves as long held emotions are allowed to burst forth. This can be alarming and frightening. Having experienced many flood-gates of emotions bursting suddenly, I am grateful for all of the gifted healers who have been there to help me move through and release these emotions much quicker than trying to it on my own. There are some who seem to easily move through their history and release emotions quickly and easily. While others are more like me and it takes longer and is important that you connect with those who are trained in alternative modalities that are geared to assisting you in moving through your story and releasing to the Light that you might heal and live in Joy. I urge you to be compassionate and kind to yourself. Do not make judgments and comparisons between you and another. We will never have enough information to ascertain what is the truth in any situation by comparing or judging. Our jog in healing is to release that which no longer holds true within our cell tissue and to claim the atonement, as talked of in A Course in Miracles, and releasing any and all pain associated with any experience you have had and allow your cell tissue to be filled with God's Love and Peace. Some of the modalities that I used are: http://rapideyetechnology.com/ http://www.thetahealing.com/ Reiki Accupuncture/Chi Gong Therapy I am trained in the top three modalities, I am also a Spiritual Counselor/Teacher Msc. Master's of Metaphysical Science. MariahInanna Jonas http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/profile.php?id=100000157244235 http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Goddess-Inanna/148316965228719 http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Goddess-Coach/156193034442193 http://apps.facebook.com/blognetworks/blog/the_goddess_inanna http://thegoddesscoach.us/ http://thegoddessinanna.blogspot.com/ http://pinterest.com/mariahinanna/ http://twitter.com/#!/MariahInanna

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Secrets

SECRETS There were always secrets in my family. I didn't know that in the beginning. It is something I learned as I grew up, became a woman, a wife, and a mother. As a young mother, I had no idea of how the genetic codes also affected behavior. I had always believed behavior to be entirely environmental, I have since learned that this is not so. As a teenager I had made a vow to myself, “I was going to raise my children in such a way that they would be kept safe from all manner of abuses that I had suffered as child.” I knew that I had enough love, what I didn't know is how deep and how far back the abuse went in my family genetics. It had been there for generations and I was not able to prevent those same abuses from being passed down, in fact, some of them, the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual ones, I perpetuated much to my regret. In the mid-1970's I was put on a drug for depression, I began to gain a lot of weight and was always exhausted due to the drug. In the early 1980's as I began to investigate healing and pray for healing for the deep depression that I found myself in, I was guided to alternative healing modalities that went deeper into the psyche, and included going into the cell tissue of the body, this changed the DNA by releasing the cell memory stored in the cell tissue. This was absolutely amazing to me. I was fascinated and began searching for truth and healing. How did the body heal, how did Jesus Christ as 'The Master Healer' perform his miracles? He said, “This, and more shall you do.” Would I be able to heal myself? These were my questions, and the alternative modalities were my answers. I had a sister who was also involved in healing herself. As a child I had never liked this sister, I thought she was selfish, and lazy, I found this was not the truth about her. We became good friends and she became my healing partner. We took classes together, worked on each other and shared our 'secrets'. Our secrets were very similar, in fact they overlapped. Not in every detail nor did they share interactions with the same people, but in the events that we had kept secret. I had been filled with shame, thinking it was my fault and if I could just be 'gooder' these things would stop. Not True! I was not at fault and essentially neither was the perpetrator, a child just two years older than I was. It had to come from somewhere else and taught to the perpetrator. As my sister and I shared our stories, and talked with a cousin who grew up on our road, we began to discover a thread that wove through our abuses. We also discovered that our parents were not able to take a stand and tell the parents of the children who were our perpetrators because, “They had to live with these people, they were their 'friends and neighbors'” Secrets, are kept by those who believe themselves to be victims and therefore they are powerless to change a situation. We learned where and how the abuse had been perpetuated. Secrets and more secrets ~ As my parents were approaching the end of their lives, they had set up a Trust to protect their assets that at their deaths their children could inherit equally. This is what we had been told for many, many years. Suddenly when the 'Trustees' were given control of the Trust, we non-Trustees were told that things were non of our business and that they didn't want to tell us, they didn't have to tell us and they were not going to tell us. More Secrets ~ Two years before my mother passed a huge secret came forth, it blew my mind. My mother's father was revealed as 'the father' to my Aunt's illegitimate child that she had been forced to give up for adoption in the early 1900's. There was much shame attach to children born our of wedlock and the story was told that the father was a man who was married and had great responsibilities and therefore she had to give the child up. She was not given a choice as girls are now given. My aunt lived with this secret her whole life, her life was cluttered, she was a hoarder and so out of control, yet on the outside she 'tried' to control. She tried really really hard to be a good person to compensate for her hidden secret, she felt it was her fault. IT WAS NOT ~ This is one example of the sins of the fathers' being passed down to the children. Children willing accept responsibility for their parents anger and rage, thinking that it is their fault. It is only through personal choice and accountability and coming into a oneness with the Divine and claiming atonement will one be able to heal these patterns, and change their life. As I met this part of my extended family, I was amazed at how profound the genetic resemblances were. My cousin not only physically looked like my aunt, she walked like my aunt, and talked with the same inflections in her voice and used some of the exact phrases that my aunt used. My cousins' children were close to my age, I found that they carried the same emotional baggage as I did, as well as, my other cousins on my mothers' side of the family. It was like a De Ja Vu. They had experienced very similar abusive situations as I had. I felt connection, compassion, and empathy. One of the main avenues of healing requires that those things which have been denied, kept secret, be revealed. Not all of these secrets are limited to families. Secrets are kept by cultures, religious orders, communities, nations and individuals. In my case, it became very apparent to me that my 'family secrets' held keys to release me from the terror and fear that had gripped my life up to that point. I had always controlled my life by clinging to false beliefs that 'if', I could set my boundaries I would be safe. I found myself, always on the run, quitting, making excuses, avoiding and hiding; all ways of deflecting the pain and the responsibility for my life to someone or something else. I now realize that this was extremely dis-empowering and it led to many of my health issues. Our lives are so interconnected, we must learn to integrate our mind, body and spirit into the oneness that is offered by the Divine, The Atonement. It is through facing our fears and looking deeply into our lives, choosing to release, forgive and claim the Atonement can we move forward into a productive life filled with the Joy that we seek. For the Joy that we seek is seeking us.